My name is Jen, and I am a 24-year-old Korean American girl. I was born and raised in the states by my parents who moved from South Korea. I consider myself lucky to have finally found what I want to do for the rest of my life: counseling. Utilizing the knowledge and skills of counseling, I hope to contribute to social justice issues and multicultural competency and empowerment.
In this blog you’ll see posts about race, privilege, and all those things we feel uncomfortable talking about. I’ll also talk about faith, mental health, and random stuff! One out of the many reasons why I love blogging is because I LOVE quotes. The words people say, I believe, are an embodiment of the person. It comes from their heart, their mind, their mouth. It’s something precious, and sometimes when precious people say precious things I just need to remember it for life!! Aka some people are eloquent and insightful.
Now some interesting things about me:
- I don’t watch TV shows and don’t go to the movies on my own volition. (But… my favorite TV show is Parks and Rec and I do have favorite movies!)
- I don’t like boxes of chocolate or chocolate really… I especially don’t like candy.
- In my mind I’m a hiker but the reality is I only go hiking a few times a year. lawls.
- Photography is my favorite hobby. 🙂
- Mmmm I don’t know what else to include haha. You’ll have to get to know me!
One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple.
— Psalm 27:4 ESV
In high school I chose the username, Gaze Upon Beauty because the words were beautiful and really stuck out to me. Now, that phrase means so much more to me. It’s practically a life motto.
My mentor would tell me a trick about cutting wrapping paper. If you stare at the end goal of where you want to cut, you’ll cut straight to it. In this life you also have to look at the end goal, the finish line. What is the end goal? To see Christ face to face. To enjoy God and glorify Him forever, in person, in intimacy, in heaven. Staring at yourself and your circumstances won’t be enough to get you through life. Staring at Him will not only guide you in this life, it will also give you joy, transform you, and make you more like Him. Gaze Upon the Ultimate Beauty and Prize.
“Being different comes from seeing differently.”
— Jon Bloom
When’s the last time I was overwhelmed by the beauty of something?
Today, as I walking on campus I thought to myself, I haven’t sought out or noticed anything truly, deeply beautiful– that kind of beauty that draws you, inspires you, and overwhelms you. That kind of beauty that makes your soul sigh with relief and lets you forget about yourself for a moment. That kind of beauty that needs no debate on whether it is magnificent or not, because its radiance will just hit you immediately.
I noticed that I don’t ever really look for beauty. If I do, it is rarely the beauty of someone’s inside. The last time I thought someone’s soul was majestically beautiful is when I thought about Mother Teresa.
Things are so fleeting. I recognize a beautiful guy or girl, and it’s fleeting. I see beautiful pictures on tumblr, but it’s literally fleeting. I scroll through my newsfeed so quickly that the pictures only last a few seconds.
My soul is hungry for a kind of beauty that is time-stopping and attention-seeking– not attention seeking because it wants viewers, but attention seeking because it demands and is worthy of all of your attention. I want to be overwhelmed by something beautiful. I want to get lost in a kind of beauty.
When I first began writing this post, I was going to end with wanting to seek beauty. I want to seek beauty in art, poetry, literature, people’s souls, compassion, and nature. But the more I think about it, it really is God, isn’t it. The only One who can satisfy these longings, even a longing for something overwhelmingly beautiful.